Ashlee

random rambles.

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 04:46:18 GMT

Christmas is almost here, and I am very excited.

I finished most of my shopping up tonight, I just need to get three more gifts tomorrow and i will be completely doneeeeeee!!!!

STACY!!! let me know when you are going to be out at the barn...i have a present for you.

all my presents are wrapped and under the tree...my car windows are getting tinted tomorrow, eeeeeek!

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

I NEEEEEED to get a new book, i finished mine like last weekend...

go figue.

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 04:34:15 GMT

i really ought to stop reading my horoscope...

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 04:32:40 GMT

Sunday, October 1, 2006

Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20)

Forgiveness isn't easy, but it can be the start of an important healing process. Go through your list of friends and associates to see what anger or resentments you may be holding on to in your relationships. Now think about what changes you can make in your own mind that will allow you to move on. Remember that this won't work if it's just a thought. You must truly feel it in order for it to have healing value.

maybe he should listen to this song as much as i have been...

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 04:10:53 GMT

There are certain people you just keep coming back to
She is right in front of you
You begin to wonder could you find a better one
Compared to her now she's in question

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there

Looking for the right one you line up the world to find
Where no questions cross your mind
But she won't keep on waiting for you without a doubt
Much longer for you to sort it out

And all at once the crowd begins to sing
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same

Maybe you want her maybe you need her
Maybe you started to compare to someone not there
Maybe you want it maybe you need it,
Maybe it's all you're running from,
Perfection will not come

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 02:27:43 GMT

This was March 2006

This is August 2006

She is getting so big and filling out really nicely :D
Everyone at the barn, farriers etc. have told me how nice of a conformation she has and that she is very well put together.
It was bittersweet bringing her back home, she really misses Buck...but it'll only be for a few more months.
Come February, when she turns two, we are going to take her back out to the barn so I have the facilities, and people I trust to help me break her...I can't wait.
I couldn't be happier with my baby girl.
<3

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 04:46:25 GMT

Life. Love.

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 01:18:31 GMT

So, I think I am sooo over school.
Maybe it's just cause this is the first week back and I got spoiled and used to sleeping until 11am...
...but as far as I am concerned, this is not working for me.
I really should adjust my attitude, cause the way I am going now I won't make it through four years of college
and being a college drop out is the farthest thing from what I want.
Calculus is going to be the one class that I am going to have to work my butt off for this year,
although my teacher seems really really nice...I hope she teaches good.
I shouldn't complain too much, I get out at 11:30 everyday, and I am only taking 3 academic classes.
Calculus, Rhetoric and Writing (aka eng-acc), econ...cross-age and my swc class are both no brainers and neither require a whole lot of work.
It was a weird feeling going back to school on Tuesday...I wasn't quite nervous, but not excited either...I mean i was excited that htis is my last year,
but the first day I was somewhat lethargic I guess...
I think alot of it had to do with everything happening this summer...I met a few people that changed my life, helped me realize that you have to enjoy life
and can't let small things stress you out (which I used to alotttt)...so I went back to school with a new outlook on life, I wont die if I dont get straight a's,
that doesnt mean I wont try, but as long as I try my best...not to mention that if I have a goal no matter what it be if its something I truely want I will get it...
I'll explain more later and in greater detail, I just wished it hadn't taken me this long to realize that no one and nothing is perfect and that I need to relax and have fun, and as long as I am happy and I try my best nothing can stop me from doing/being/going where I want to.

<3

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 05:01:29 GMT

some people can be really really fucking immature.
period.

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 21:26:23 GMT

so quila loves buck and buck loves quila...im a happy mommy :]
she is such a smart horse, i couldnt be happier with either of them right now.
it is going to be sooo sad to bring her home in a week, she loves being at the barn, and i think it was really good for her.
my dad comes home on sunday and he and my grandpa went horse happy back east.
they got me a new briddle and reins and snaffle bit for quila and a new green lead rope nad halter for buck, and a neon pink saddle pad for quila :]
thats all they have told me they got, but my dad said there was other stuff too...hahaha.

who ever invented myspace has created a monster....

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 06:42:46 GMT

LiFeSizeBARBiiE: ewww myspace isnt working.
bucmiouff: i knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: fuck
bucmiouff: it drives me nuts
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: i hate when it does this
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: and i want to gooo onn
bucmiouff: me tooooooo
bucmiouff: kjdsfgsdia
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: has it been like this all day?
bucmiouff: no
bucmiouff: it was being stupid today when i left liek at 7
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: ewaaa
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: its still being dumb!
bucmiouff: i know :-(
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: they need to fix it asap
bucmiouff: seriosly
bucmiouff: ehhhhhhhh
bucmiouff: its making me mad
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: meeeeee too

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 09:36:19 GMT

I LOVE summer and hanging out with friends until 2:30 am
then passing out and waking up at 11...

...it should never end, i never want to grow up.

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 01:05:02 GMT

wow, i havent posted a real update for a while.
its mostly been pointless events here and there.
but i guess if i talk to you, you know whats been going on
and if i dont really talk to you i guess you just lucked out and dont have to put up with my complainng, ha!

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 07:17:34 GMT

i rode tonight...

...at ten thirty :]

it was fun, and really relaxing considering all the drama that has been filling my days.
i think from now on i am going to ride at night...not only is it way cooler, but like i said before, it relaxes me.
its just me and buck and tonight i almost crieeed, cause when i got him out he was all snuggly and at the tie rail he put his nose on my shoulder and just stood there cheek to cheek with me...i loooooooooooooove him so damn much.

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 08:28:25 GMT

YAY! for being wide awake at 1:30 in the mornnnnnnning

Definition of young and naive...

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 03:22:26 GMT

At this time I really don't know what to do.
(Btw, that has nothing to do with whats below..)

My first week of summer vacation is drawing to an end...
Not that it hasnt been good, I mean Kenny Chesney with Lauren, Belmont Park, ducks and ice ticklers :)

I am just really dreading getting my shit together (for lack of better term) :(
Starting this week:
-Both my horses will get out everyday (maybe not days I work at ECLAP)
-Gym at least 4 days a week
-Start volunteering with ECLAP sometime soon

Not to mention sometime this summer:
-Del Mar Fair 123902839 times
-More Belmont Park
-Hopefully me and Stacy will make it to Knotts (or somewhere)

On another note...
The vet comes out Thursday for Quila. She needs a booster shot and her side looked at. It looks like it may be getting worse, maybe she is begining to get proud flesh and I need to start putting the wonder dust on, but tonight when i cleaned it, it looked digusting :( Marion is coming on Monday since she will be at Beckett's, so hopefully form there I know if I need the vet sooner (if it looks worse than it did today when I clean it tomorrow, I will just call the vet anyways, I just like to have someones opinion, seeing as how I have never dealt with injuries liek this, and she isn't at the barn where Laura can guide me with it and all)

Buck...I love him. I haven't been riding a whole lot, I think I just needed to take my week off and do NOTHING. I did ride him thee times this week, but it get frustrating because we are working towards nothing right now. We aren't taking lessons, we don't do gymkahana stuff anymore,,,as much as i looooove to ride him, I feel like I am getting NO where, and he is getting stiffer :( My goal this summer is to ride five days a week, turn out one day and one day off...I want to get him back into good shape, it is my fault he lost some muscle due to the fact I stressed myself out way too much this past semester and wasn't riding liek I needed to be.

I love this girl <3!!!
LiFeSizeBARBiiE: why i dont get it
LiFeSizeBARBiiE ur like duhh the cutest thing around.
bucmiouff shut up
LiFeSizeBARBiiE ok????????????
bucmiouff what!?
LiFeSizeBARBiiE he is the stuppppidEST boy i know.
bucmiouff hahaha
LiFeSizeBARBiiE seriously
LiFeSizeBARBiiE even willy doesnt get him
LiFeSizeBARBiiE willy thinks he is sooo dumb

I would put the rest, but yeah, y'all don't need to know the entire stroy behind that...

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 18:26:58 GMT

TEDDY GEIGER IS GOING TO BE AT THE FAIR JUNE 30!!!!!!!

I AM SOO THERE <3

WANNA GO?!

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 00:31:52 GMT

Thank you very much for everyones (the two people who actually read this anymore) concern about my academic crisis.
He ended up curving the final which brought me back up to an 88%
Whcih he rounded up and gave me an A

:)

God, I love being an ass kisser...it pays off in the end!

Thu, 15 Jun 2006 02:49:42 GMT

uuuuugh,
history and i do not get along.
i studied for my final
but still got a 66% :(
my grade went form an a to c
and thats only half
i dont even know what i got on the district one yet
finals should not count for half of our grade

...im sorry i am very bitter about this
this will be my first c ever :(
and my first grade lower than an a in highschool
i was crying today when i found out

fuck school
fuck finals

...its summer bitch!

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 05:16:46 GMT

summer is sooo sooo near...three more days to be exact :)
i can not wait
the end of this school year is somewhat bittersweet...
things started to just feel right and i hope that feeling carries on to next year...

i am going to be a senior next year
i can remember the first day of my freshman year when i wanted so bad to just be a senior and graduate
the day katie called me before school started just to see how i was cause i was upset about having to go to school with susie
and now its here...senior pictures, prom, grad night
its going to come and leave so fast
i have mixed feeling about finally being a senior...
i want to leave and move on, forget the drama of highschool
but the other part of me doesnt want to grow up, i dont want to go out into the "real world"
and it makes it even harder that i have made so many new friends this year and have had so much fun at school
my biggest regret so far would be that i was not outgoing my freshman/sophmore years, and missed out on alot of things...

..i have a feeling next year will by far be the best year of highschool

wow, i feel old :( that wasnt very organized and perhaps i will fix it later, and provide an entire update on the life of ashlee, but i have two finals tomrrow which i have not studied for one bit, so the least i can do is actually get some sleep tonight!

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 04:28:38 GMT

Dear Stacy,

Thanks for being my friend even though we hardly talk and hang out anymore :(
It makes me sad! Anyways, today I took my subject SATs, Literature and Math II.
Basically the math rappped me like no other test, but the literature was okay.
Anyways, when are we going to hang out? Cause I miss my other blonde with brains!
And, about that trip to Knott's Berry Farm...we best be making plannns!

Kthnxbye

Love,
The other blonde with brains,
Ashlee

Sat, 27 May 2006 00:27:44 GMT

NOTE TO SELF:

After a 4 hour trail ride and not eating all day, do not attempt to get out your one year old horse.
Patience is lost when you are tired and you end up taking you anger out on the horse.
Not to mention, you can't stand all the little antics a one year old tries when you have a major lack of patience.

And, never let someone feed you one year old horse while you are tyring to braid her mane, because the once standing still horse is no longer after one treat....

i remember when i lost my mind...there was something so pleasant about that day.

Sun, 14 May 2006 23:48:00 GMT

it wasnt because i didnt know enough...i just knew too much, does that make me crazzzy?!

buuuuusy...so busy lately
i hate it with a passion
school needs to just end already
and i just need to get a job
my horses dont get out nearly enough
and i feel like a HORRIBLE mommy!
i need a boyfriend, and i have my eye on someone
i just wont say anyhting cause i dont know if he likes me likes me
and i dont want to risk a friendship

so update on my horses...
1. buck: we went on trail on friday he was such a gooooof and had so much fun :) he ran and ran and ran and was a happy boy. the down side his leg is a lil puffy yesterday adn today, it doesnt bother me too much anymore because he isnt lame i have become used to it happening (althoug it hasnt in a long time). he is doing os well in the arena too, he moves better and is alot more relaxed, i think he feels obligated to be good the one day i get to ride him in the week (muaha, just wait until june, he will be mad at me when he is getting out everyday!)

2. quila: she is growinggggg so fast, and i love the fact i get to watch her grow up :) we conquered a huge fear yesterday and walked through the huge puddle where my street floods. at first the noise the cars made going through it scared her, but after they passed and we walked up to it and she sniffed it she realized it wasnt mean and infact it was just liek rain. not to mention she would have been crazy not to go through it after i walked trough it in my vans and then had to walk home with wet shoes.

there are only about 4 weeks of school left plus one of finals so im pretty excited...it just need to go buy way fatser!

tuesday nick is coming to go on a trail ride with me :) yay!!! im excited! i will ride buck and he will ride dallas, a girl at the barns horse, because he is pretty damn bombproof. its about time he is finally coming to ride, we have planned it liek three times but things happen, so ill keep my fingers crossed.

the kenny chesney concert is june 18...i have good tickets. i am not sure if nick is going or not, but it should be funnn! yee-haw!

i went out last night and bought the gnarls barkley and red hot chili peppers cds...they are good, somehting new :p

gahhh, i am waiting for dinner to be ready, i am hungry...my dad is making steak and lobster tonight...yummy :)

Wed, 10 May 2006 23:00:18 GMT

It was my mommy's birthday today and I suprised her at work with a flower and a card :P
and i really like my hair today :)

Tue, 09 May 2006 03:16:07 GMT

i envy those who have a perfect life...

Mon, 01 May 2006 01:21:43 GMT

so this summer quila will be moving to the barn for a week once a month....

im sooo excited i get to show her offfff :p

nd buck gets to meet his sister!!!